Friday, August 24, 2012

Going to Church

Last night my honey and I had a nice talk about church. When we first began dating and started living our lives together, we would occasionally attend the baptist church I grew up going to. The church I was baptized in at the age of ten.

We soon moved to the DFW area where church was not quite a priority. It wasn't even in the top ten on the priority list. Our marriage suffered but we stuck through it.

I have always believed in God. I have never lived in a strong, Christian home. My mom took us to church on Sundays but that is where church stayed. Sometimes I went to church with Grandma. She attended Church of Christ and was a good, godly woman who I looked up to. I found out not too long ago that scolded my dad for letting Mom take us to a Baptist church. Dad never took us to church but didn't oppose our attending. He says he "doesn't believe in that stuff".

Sean and I have been through so much crazy stuff in our sixteen years together. I have not always been a very good wife and mother. I have made huge mistakes. I made horrible choices in my marriage and tried to destroy it with my bare hands. Then, just as I had almost given in to the enemy, I became pregnant. I often tell myself that a baby saved my life. My baby saved me. I began to see that I had to do better for my family. I still dealt with depression after having the baby but wouldn't let it get me down.

Over the past few years I have worked very hard to redeem myself. To my husband. My children. And most importantly, my Father. I began to study the Word. I have stopped worrying about what the world thinks of me and started worrying about whether or not I have pleased God. It's tough, but it feels so good!

So last night Sean and I were talking. I believe it was in April that we went to Houston to celebrate Sean's grandfather's life that had expired in January. Sean had never told me this before, but last night he told me how attending the Catholic service made him feel closer to God. It lit a fire inside of me. It seems that my prayers for him to personally draw closer to God for his own good are working! (Ugh, I'm tearing up now.)

We decided together that we will try out going to a local Catholic church and see how we all like it. That day in April was my and the kids first mass ever. I had little clue as to what was going I, but I did enjoy it very much.

Last night I sat up for a little while searching and researching Catholicism. I believe I have been fed some misconceptions but that's really no surprise. Hence, the reason I research anything that is of importance to me. We're going to try this and I am excited. It could be a whole new season in our lives.

Tuesday, August 14, 2012


I keep sitting down and trying to write but nothing comes out. I think I'm trying too hard. Maybe I should not think too much about it...

So much going on lately. I'm getting excited for school to start back up. We're starting on September 4th. I love that we get to choose when we begin. Sage and Raiden will actually start next week. Sage begins her World View Studies class and they both begin Latin at the church. Wow, I'm really excited!

I think I have been scaring the crud out of my husband here lately. In a good way, though. *hehe* The more research I do, the more crap I want to keep out of all our bodies. I stopped vaccinating KK at 18 months because she had a reaction to the MMR. I was worried about my decision to not vaccinate for a while. Then I came across a group on Facebook that shares tons of information that has helped me come to the decision to not vaccinate my kids any more. There are horrible, horrible things in those vaccines. I am so glad that I have educated myself and know that I have the choice as to whether or not I want to inject my kids and myself with poison.

Aaaahhh! The West Nile Virus! It is the first and last thing they talk about on the news now days. I am so tired of hearing about it. Yes, I am worried about it. Yes, I am taking measures to make sure we are not bitten by mosquitoes and that we do what we can to prevent mosquitoes from breeding around our home. I am taking those measures. I don't expect the government to do it for me. There has been a big push for aerial pesticide spraying in the area because of the "epidemic" of WNV (West Nile Virus). Epidemic? I am pushing for no spraying! I really am sorry for those who have gotten sick or have lost a loved one to WNV but I don't want a blanket of cancer inducing chemicals being sprayed over our homes. I work very hard to keep toxins out of my family's bodies. I don't need the government hand delivering them to our door.

Okay, complaining  over.

Today we had our monthly mom's meeting with our homeschool support group. We have such a lovely group of ladies. I was able to meet two of our new moms and a couple of their sweet kids at today's meeting. That little boy was so cute I could've scooped him up and brought him home with me. I don't think his mother would have approved, though being that it's the first time I met them and all. We had a great meeting. I am hoping we have more in attendance next month. I think it may help that the meeting are during the day now instead of the evening. I don't know about the rest of the ladies, but I like to spend my evening at home with my honey and kiddos. I am already waiting quite impatiently for our first group field trip. We will be going to an orchard. I'm so excited! I tried to take my kids to this same farm last October and was basically told that I was too late. Apparently they do all sorts of kids out there for field trips. I was told that there will be another group out there when we will be. Boo. We will have a great time, though!

I guess I'll go cook up some grub for these people. I don't know what their deal is. They expect me to feed them ;)