Friday, August 20, 2010

Nerves

I almost feel as though am about to have a panic attack.

This is tough.

I am sure I've made the right decision, but I am still so apprehensive.

I feel like a fool sitting here crying over whether or not I am doing the right thing. I am though... right?

I definitely don't take my children's education lightly and that is why I decided to home school them. I would never down the public school system even with all of its flaws, but last year was a difficult one for us. I was tired of hearing my son tell me that he can't. It was hard to see my daughter struggle at something that I know she can excel at.

We start school in three days and I feel so unprepared as sit making our first weeks lesson plans. I know that I have put a lot of thought into home schooling. I thought about it for over a year before I decided for sure to do it. I really believe that we can do this and that my kids will be better off.

Then why do I feel like this?!?

I think the other issues in our life are contributing to this feeling. Money matters. Talk of moving. Talk of fixing up our house in order to sell. Would anyone even buy our house? Wanting to start my own business on top of it all. It is something I really want to do and know I can do, but is it the right time?

I'll be praying for insight and doing what I have to do in the meantime.

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Joshua 1:9
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5 comments:

Megan M. said...

Hang in there, girl! New things are always a little scary, but you can't grow if you don't step outside of the comfortable place where you are. You CAN do this, and do it well! Praying for peace for you!

This Daddy said...

Look, its ok to feel like that. Tracy was nervous when she first started last year. Then she sat and organized all of the stuff, made a schedule and wrote it all down and got a game plan together. Just get all of your stuff and do one child at a time and organize them. Then do the next. You will get it.

trooppetrie said...

I was so nervous my first year. it seemed like everyone had things all lined up and planned and i did not. over the last 8 years i have met so many wonderful people who have encouraged me.

Jade =) said...

Hi, Amy. Thanks for commenting on my blog about starting HS. I hope that once you guys got started, things fell into place (or at least are on their way!). Don't even doubt your ability to do this... and you're definitely not alone (our group has already proven that to me!). Looking forward to an update on how things are going!

Dallas Mommy said...

Amy: YOu won the Sears MY DFW Mommy giveaway! Trying to reach you to get it sent your way! Hope you get this... I'll give it about 48 hours and I'll have to choose someone else. Email me asap at mydallasmommy@gmail.com!